Off the Path

So i've been in Greeley for about seven months now and i have gotten of the path. I once really had a grip on who i was and what my morals were but now im reallly not sure. Im not sure who i am or what my morals are. Example, i used to think that waiting to have sex until your married was the way but now im not sure. I used to love kids, i cant stand them. I used to want to get married but now i dont think it will ever happen. I used to think i was a good Christian girl, but i dont know anymore. I used to think that people really liked me but i have no friends here. I never used to dance on tables at bars, drink,or smoke, at this rate i'll die of lung cancer. I never thought i would have to use my self defence skills that i learned in 6th grade, now i have many guys who hate my guts for it. Whats next for me? Whats going to heppen next? Where will i end up? Who am i becoming?