Email forward

Today i got this forward and i think it really made me feel better and reminded me of who iam.... Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top ofthe tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality,they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man tocome along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Now men, men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and its up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
I guess i relized that being closer to the top of the tree is ok and i shouldnt lower myself to the ground.

Off the Path

So i've been in Greeley for about seven months now and i have gotten of the path. I once really had a grip on who i was and what my morals were but now im reallly not sure. Im not sure who i am or what my morals are. Example, i used to think that waiting to have sex until your married was the way but now im not sure. I used to love kids, i cant stand them. I used to want to get married but now i dont think it will ever happen. I used to think i was a good Christian girl, but i dont know anymore. I used to think that people really liked me but i have no friends here. I never used to dance on tables at bars, drink,or smoke, at this rate i'll die of lung cancer. I never thought i would have to use my self defence skills that i learned in 6th grade, now i have many guys who hate my guts for it. Whats next for me? Whats going to heppen next? Where will i end up? Who am i becoming?

Errrr Blog

Ok the last two post are in the wrong order. The Awwww shoes was the latest post while the Sundance post was the older one. So dont get lost!!!!

The Sundance

Wow last night was the best night ever!!!! I went to the Sundace, a local club. See you need to be 18 but they have a dont ask dont tell policy on Sunday nights so i got in. I found the cuttest little skirt that flares when i spin alond with brown chocolate shoes!! I was ready to roll. So i get there at 9 and illy and i are ready to tear it up. She daced for an hour or so while i Danced till11:00, when they close. I was also lucky enogh to find me a country boy who was my dacing parter for the night. We had blast and he threw me up in the air and around!!!! It was sooo cool. But at the very end for the last dace i got many offers but sat it out, after all the last dance is for your lover!! So sorry cowboys the last dance belongs to someone else out there!

Awwwww shoes

So latley i have gotten into the show Sex and the City, this show has really inspired me in many areas. One example is the power of a single woman. I love the idea of being fun, sexy, sucessful, and single. I think it would be way fun to stay single for awhile and live my life to the fullest! Anywho the show has also inspired my clothing. I have become addicted to shoes!!! I love them, they are so great and no matter how much you weigh they will always fit. So yesterday i go shoe Hunting but sadly none were to be found. Just when i thought my hunt was ruined i looked in the basement of my mums house. See my mum also loves shoes but never gets rid of them. Deep in the dark basement i found them! The shoes of love!!! They say sexy classy young lady all in one look!!! So Enzo Angiolini, Thank you! Your shoes have truley saved my day and will make a great look when i go Dancing!!!

Bond.....James Bond

So here is the deal im watching tv and up comes info about the new James bond movie, So i get all piped but then it show some tiny blond guy and i was peodeddddd!!!! How can this happen James Bond is tall, tan and dreamy. Not short scrony and blond!!!! errrrrrrrr they are runing a classic so as a Bond Fan please go to www.craignotbond.com/ and tell support the fight against the new Bond. Please!!! Or the world may have to deal with the pain of a........Heaven Forbid.........a........Bad James Bond!!!!! As a human take action!!!!

Ahhhhh love

Yes it is here, VDay!!! The day when we celebrate love!!!!! My older sister is going crazy for her boyfriend, what to get, where to eat, bla bla bla i've heard it all before. But what is this love that we celebrate, and how do we know if we found it? I hear my sister telling her boyfriend that she loves him and he says it back but do they really know what it means? Do any of us really do? I health class we took a small lil test on what love is and what lust is. I bomded it becasue i used my dads example, but again what is love. Or what is the love that my health techer is trying to teach me? I think love is many things, There is the love that you share for your family. Then the love you have for God. Then the love for friends. Finally the love for another. This final love is getting me a little confused. I mean is it really possible for two people to really love each other forever and ever, or can the heart love more then once? Ummmmm what is the love that you share with another?is it real?is it for everyone?

Summit County

WOwowowowowow this weekend i was in Summit County!!!!!!!! it was soooooooo much fun!!!!! I got to hang out with Ang, Kristina, Kimberly, and my lil sis!! it was a total blast i cant wait to go up there again!!!

Home Again

Yes!!!!! today i am in Frisco aka HOME!!!!! I love this place sooo much i want to move back sooooo bad!!!! The air is fresher the sky is clear and the powder is perfect. Im only here for the weekend doing work for my dad but every glimps of outside is worth it. I trulley love the mountain... i belong in the mountains and i dont want to leave but who knows maybe there is a purpose for me in Haterville.

New New Year

Ok here I am again but I was thinking about my New Years resolution and why it has failed...Again. Then it dawned on me that I told my self this year I would Get hold of My Emotions. I jumped out of an airplane without any gear. I told myself what I wanted but I didn't make any steps so I have decided to redo my New Years Resolution. Here it is, This Year I am going to get my emotions under control and move on from all the events that have gotten me down my using these steps:
1.No more crying over anything less then cancer
2. Face my pain
3.Deal with my pain
4. Learn from my pain
5.Let go of the all the crap
6.Forgive and don't look back
7.move on with a positive adittude and don't let anything less then cancer get me down!!!!!
So there yah go my New New Years resolution I'm coming out strong with a positive attitude. Lovs and Lovs Genesisisisisisisisssss

Friends and Family

So after the fight with my Mum i began to think about family. Im sure many people are familiar with the show Charmed, Im not into the witch craft thing but i do like the show. I like it because its based on the power of three, or the bond of three sisters. See usally people live two different life. One for everyday where they are know as fun great people and the other at home where thier true colors come out. I have been guilty of the double life and have come to the conclusion that its not okay. I want to be the fun outgoing crazy girl all the time not just to my family. So i have made myself a small little promise. I will live one life, and i hope in this life i can become better friends with my two sister and great pals with my lil bother..... i mean brother. Here i am one life and one life only the good and the bad will be shown to every1 i befriend!!!!!!

Good bye mum

Well as of today my mother and i are no longer talking. Today my sister and i were having are daily vent on each other when my mum decided to jump in. Shes been made at me lately for reasons unknown. I think its because im finally loogin weight and her boyfirend gave me a hug the other day and said that i looked nice. Anywho so after wretling on the floor with my sis something poped and illy began to cry. i was freaked out we always mess areound but noe one gets hurt. My mum rushes in rushes me away from illy and rubs her back. Illy was fine but my mum had it with me. She strted yealling at me and calling me all the names in the book. Usally i take it but i finally had enough. i told her to stop yelling at me and pointed my finger in her face. ANd for the first time since i was little she hit my. I told her to F*** off and stood up again. She graped me by then neck and threw me across the floor, as she yelled at me she reached down and put my arm behind my back and kept telling me what a brat i was. See my mum in in the airforce and she could kick my a** any day. Ok i will say i did my share of mouthing off to her, so i wasnt lil miss innocent, but really the mum should be the parent in the room not another sister. Finally i cried and she let me go. i told her to go to h**** and she said something that really broke my heart. She told me "Grow up already and act the age you look, since you want to be older i will treat you older, so get out and dont ever come back" See i look older but i really wish i didnt but hey wut canya do. But at that moment an hour ago i relized that my mum was jelous of me, and it breaks my heart to know that, and know that she doesnt look at me as her child but as her commpetioion. Well i hope we can work pass this. Until then I love you MUM!