I miss sumitttttttttttttt

I misssssssssssssssssssssss summit so much right now! i miss my old life i miss the times when i knew what i wanted. I miss my house church! i miss you rosie i miss you tessa i mss you JOANIE i miss you angela, i miss you marie, i miss you jenifer and jackie, i miss you isaac, ben, gred, david, joey and i miss you JEFF!!!! i need you guys so much right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant even begin to write how much i need you guys!!!!
I miss you mike and Judy, Bobby and Briana, Hannah, Tammy, Bill and Jerie!!!! i miss you guys!!!!
i wish it could be like before. its so hard here without any support in my morals. Here people make fun of me so bad because i wait!! i could always deal with it because you guys were there to hold me up!!!! i just want to give in sometimes!!!!!!! i need you guys so bad right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i LOVE all of you so much!!!!! i just missssss that life so much. i miss the mountains, the walks, the times with God. its so hard here. only you guys know me and i can be me!!! im so tired of fighting for something that only i believe in!!!!!!!!!!

rick james Bitch

yeah so im still awake and thinking of the last few days and remebered that i got the bitch. ok so it sounds really bad but it really funny......so what happens is that everyone on staff tries to scare each other and the one who screams becomes the Sizz bitch. So Juan came up behind me while i was in the freezer and scared the crap out of me. so like a gurl i screamed!!!! He yellef rick james Bitch you it. awwww i should have seen that one coming anywho so to remove my name i waited by the trash for tyler and scared the crap out of him!!!!!!!!!! YEA RICK JAMES BITCH!!!!!!!!! your it ty sorry!

Oh yea while im up and rambling i was in the freezer jamin with my nano when joe came in and watched me ..... i didnt know he was there....anywho to keep him quite i rolled one bucket for him!!!! thats ok i'll get some dirt on him!!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaawake

wow i can NOT sleep at all. I'm so awake!!!!!!!!!!!! Note: never drinl a rock star nive minutes before your bed time. well if anyone is awake give me a chat im way awake!!!!!!!! Oh yea my phone is being gheto so if you call leave a voicmail otherwise i wont know if you called or not!

A weird dream!

Wow I just woke up from a really intense dream. Ok so I'm at some party that I really didn't want to go to when all of a sudden a notice something outside. The party was at some millionaires house and he had like 50 acres of land. Anyway I sneak out and walk for a mile or so when a find a really good friend of mine tied up. They were going to kill him for being Christian. I tried to get him free but he didn't want me to. He told me that he wanted to die like this and that it was his destiny, and all how wanted was for me to spend his last few moments with him. So I did, it felt like forever in a few moments. In all the confusion there was some simple Pease and understanding of what he was dying for. Then all at once I was pulled away from his arms and he was killed. I was so sad and so happy all at once, I didn't know what to think.

A few minutes ;later the guards had me in chains and were ready to kill me when the host of the party walked in. He obviously wanted me so he spared me. Then I found myself married to him, the man that killed my true love and best friend, I was so miserable everyday. To make me happy he bought me a palace in the mountains. It felt that I had everything but nothing at the same time, I felt so empty and angry. He had taken me and given me every earthly thing but none of it could fill me.

then I finally woke up! That was a weird dream!

Gray

Ok I just hoped out of the shower and was doing my hair when I found a gray hair!!!!! I'm getting old!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean really this is crazy, I already look older!!!!! That's ok I'll run to the store and get some hair stuff. They say for every gray you pull three come to the funeral!!!

Working together

Errrrrrrrrrrrrrr today I worked with all guys!!!! Usually I can stand my own but with Lord Bob and yes Man Bryan it was a lil tuff! It makes me angry when they brag about cheating on their girlfriend. Or how many they have scored! Why cant they respect women? They really need to!!!! Like the other day I was cleaning up my section while they guys were rollin the silverware, they were also very into the TV. Naturally I look to see whets on, and what do I find.....Porn. Yea and then Bob looks at me and says...... So Genesis can you do that?...... I was so mad!!! That's so nasty. It gets better. So I got done at 10:20!!!!!!!!! That is so early for me!!!!!!! So of course I do a little victory Dave and some of the other staff joins me for a few minutes, as things cool down the manager comes screaming in my face! He told me that I was getting in the way and making the workers lose focus. So yea I can see how that's true but why are the guys allowed to do crap like that all the time!!!!!! I really hope this doesn't keep up otherwise I might just smack me a MAN HO!!!! That's ok at least in inspired to be different form the duches..... Well most of the time!

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So here's the dealio errrrrrr. Ok Bryan and I are really good friends and have a little thing for each other. Bryan seemed like a really kol kid and I would have really like to go out with him. Well Bob is a great friend of Bryan and Bob is a perv!! Bob also doesn't like me because Bob cant have me! Anyway the other day Bob took me aside and asked me what would happen if Bryan took me to the freezer and pulled down his pants. I slapped him and that was his answer. Well today in work Bryan was acting really weird to me. When I asked him what was wrong he said nothing and walked away. Well later he finally told me that he didn't want to lead me on but him and I were never going to happen!!! When I asked him if it was because of Bob looked down. Then I asked him if it was because I wouldn't put out he just walked away.

I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mad what a lil man ho. Just cause I wont put out like every other girl he wont have me!!!!! fucking duchebag!!!!! i hate this!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like I'm being punished for having morals!!!!!!!!!! What I'm not pretty enough to go after?!?!?!?! Why am i waiting? Its not like I'm going to meet a good guy who also has morals!!!Maybe i should put out like every other girl..... But no i hold on to this fantasy that one day I'll meet a guy who will actually love me and think I'm beautiful and will treasure my morals!!!!i whish that this fantasy would be true so i could go one with my life....But no i still wait!!!!

My friends

Its funny i really didnt make any friends until May, but hey thats kol. Anywho friends come and go but a blog lasts forever so here we are.
My first friend is Brenda!!!! She is the closest friend i have at the moment and i really care for her. We meat at work and have hung out sunce then, she is my only Christian friend here. She is really mature and i can be myself around her. Shes a great person to talk to and always listens. She is also convinced that i am white, because if shes mexican then there is no way i could have a speck of mexican in me!!!!lol. Yea Brenda is really kol and i hope good things for her!!!

Then there is Jessican, the crazy girly. This girl lives everyday to the fullest!!!! if i ever want to have a good time i know who to call!!!!! She is also a very caring person, she can never turn some1 away if they need help. She is a person you can always count on!!!!!

My last little girly that i hang with is Jenna!!!!!!! Jenna is a sweetheart!!!!!!! she is so nice and very active. She can always find something to do, or get soemthing done. She was the one who made my 17th the best birthday ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love this girl and she is going places!!!!

True there are other friends that i have but these girls are really kol and im really glad that we are frineds!!!!!!!!

There is one other good friend that i have that i cnat forget to mention!!!!!!!!!!Joanie!!!!!!!! i love her to death. we hardly see each other but i know that i can always count on her to be there for me!!!! she is smart, beautiful, and loving to death!!! this girl is the greatest person i know!!!!!! love you girly!!!!!!

Oh wait i cant foreget about the one girly who keeps me in line. She is the very very smart and very convicted. i look up to her in many ways!!!!! Angela Simon!!!! this girl has it going on!!!!!!