Dreams

Lately I have been having dreams that my stepmom parents came put her. Filiz is from Turkey so they would have to come all the way from Turkey if they did, and with all the security it would be very hard but who knows.

oh yah and I'm braking out with a cold sore and it hurt like no other. Mrs. Judy gave me a name of some clod sore medicine so I think tomorrow ill pick some up.
Please pray for illy, my lil big sister in really feel like she needs prayer.
Chat to yah later
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Tea

How many different teas do you think are in this world, and which ones really help?

Getting Sick

Err today I am sick, I have the once a year cold that comes to me every year. The good part is that it doesn't last very long but for the time I'm miserable. I should be grateful at least I don't have the flu. Well got make come yea, chat to yah later.

A Girl Day

Today I'm having a girl day. A girl day is a day of all emotions. So as a result I'm having a very interesting day. Like now I don't fell sad but I'm not happy, I'm tired but I don't want to take a nap, I'm not angry but I want to yell. The years of puberty, they kill.
So here I am all alone in the office trying to pay attention to tax school, what's the point of learning all of these tax laws? Besides there will be all new ones next year, but oh well Uncle Sam wants his cut of our money. Speaking of which I have come to a new conclusion, my dad should get an extra tax deduction.
He should get this because I got to a private school, a school that the government doesn't pay for. Yes, why should he pay for me to go to the public school when I don't even go there? Maybe I'll make a new tax law, along with the million others! IM a genius, not really but we can pretend. Well chat ot ya later
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Friends or Family

Today was a hard choice between friends or family. I could either go to my friends birthday party or see my mom who I hardly ever see. These decisions are always hard for me so I finally decided to see my mom, so Rosie please forgive me.

The Diet

Ok today is the day I'm going on my diet and I'm not stopping until I get to me ideal weight!!!!! I will go off for holidays only!!!!!!! I'm so serious about this, I will not go off again!!! It will consist of vegies and water, ahhh I will be so skinny!!!

Family night

Well the first time in a long time I went to the movies with part of my family. Filiz, Sible, baby Filiz, Papa, and me all went. We saw the incredible, I'm really glad I went, we really needed to get out.

Guys?

Sorry I repeated myself. Anyhow, guys? I really don't get a lot of them, truly I don't. Same with some girls, at least the girls who go crying to the guys I don't get. Why do girls think its kol when guys fight over them? Why do guys fall into the stupid trap? Really I don't get it!!!!!!!!!!! Guys ruin great friendship with each other over a girlfriend that wont last as long as a friend. Even if the guys aren't good friends cant they see that the girls just want to make them jealous so they feel better about themselves!!!!!!!!!!! I know that girls want to feel secure with a guy and safe but its not going to last when your a teen. These girls will go on to guy after guy just so they can feel more secure but they're not going to find it with little boyfriends. Why are they so blind? It hurts seeing all this because I know guys who do this, and the girls who set it all up!!!!!!!!!! I don't know, this is why I think people should wait until they are mature enough to date. Oh well I better go to bed before I get to mad about this, I just hope that these guys would wake up already.

Guys?

The crush that is crushing me

For the last three years I have had a crush on a certain someone, I have always kept it on the low side until recently. This crush hurts a lot, I really don't want to like this person more then a friend. I want to be able to email him with thinking that I'll spill my guts. What makes me feel really bad is that I get mad at this person for no real reason, which isn't fair to him. I promised God that I would not date until I'm 18 but I believe liking someone as much as I do is bad to. The reason why I'm not dating is because I want to focus on God, but thinking of this person not only hurts but is making me grow further away from God. So hopefully I'll be able to move on and grow in Jesus even more.
P.S the people who know me please don't make fun of me but instead pray for me. This crush is really crushing my feelings.

LONG TIME NO SEE

Well its been a while and many things have happened. I have had a hard weekend with my Stepmom, but that's life. I do want to love her and respect her but it is so hard. I want my dad and her get along without our family falling apart. He doesn't see if but our family is slowly dyeing,but I have no doubt in my mind that God will make it better. So if you have time please pray for my family, we sure could use it.
On the better side I have come up with many more thoughts. I want to help kids with divorced parents, I really want to be a able to reach out and help the people who are going through tough time. No one should be left alone, and this could be a great opportunity to share the gospel. People don't realize it but parents are really hurting their kid,and those without the love of Jesus may not make it through. I do believe that Jesus is that one who has gotten me this far and he continues to still lead me on. Jesus is amazing and I truly whish I could reach out to everyone and share the great news but for now I have to wait for got to show me the way to go.

Halloween

Well for the first time in my life I did not celebrate Halloween. I really felt like God was telling me to to celebrate it. I was sad at first but like always Jesus got me through it. Chat to ya later
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